Sergei Prokofiev - 28 April, 1913, in the morning

from Sergey Prokofiev diaries: 28 April 1913, page 387:

Next morning, lying in bed, I felt myself so alone I was close to despair. Yesterday the pain of loss had been alleviated by bitterness at the deception: every single thing my friend had told me about himself, that I had believed implicitly, had been false! But now I forgave him everything in the face on the horror of the loneliness to which I was now condemned. True, the magnificent Max, as he had depicted himself to me, had never existed, but I had no regrets in discarding the myth and easily accommodated myself to the sham of his brilliant exterior. But Max had perished, Max was no …   more >>

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Sergey Prokofiev, Sergey Prokofiev diaries: 28 April 1913. In Anthony Phillips (ed.), Sergey Prokofiev diaries 1907-1914 (Ithaca N.Y, 2006), p. 387. accessed: 27 May, 2024

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Sergei Prokofiev
performer, Composer, Musician

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written by Yuri Karnovich, Aleksandr Glazunov
performed by Yuri Karnovich

Experience Information

Date/Time 28 April, 1913, in the morning
Medium live
Listening Environment in the company of others, in private, indoors


Shortly after the suicide of S.P.'s best friend, Max Schmidthof. S.P. discovered the previous day that Max had deceived him over his financial means and illegitimacy.

Originally submitted by isobel.1111 on Tue, 04 Aug 2015 12:42:50 +0100
Approved on Fri, 08 Jun 2018 16:16:11 +0100