All this i am writing down more for my sake, (and so I ask your forgiveness) in order to become clearer in my mind about a puzzling effect of your work. You see, when I went through your work for the first time, I was overwhelmed by the "fullness of the vision". On a second examination I was no longer impressed on the same level, I lost the sense of the necessity of many turns of expression, the detail was beyond me and I could not consider that the structure of the piece was sufficiently regular. In parts I find the piece quite outstanding, as anything anywhere in music, but this absolute non-acknowledgement of rules and laws -